So, in thinking about what I wanted to blog about this week, I really thought it was going to be a "woe-is-me" type of post. Apparently, shocker, I can only stay positive for so long before my feelings get the best of me. Nothing new or bad has happened at work. Nothing new is going on just yet with my business dream. My life is just following the status quoe like it has been for QUITE A WHILE. The reoccurring realization that I am alone right now. I know this time is for me and God to be together, and for me to grow. It just gets old and lonely sometimes. Anyway, this has been heavy on my heart again this week. Like I have said before, I go up and down with this. So, when I went to church today, it was still weighing heavily on me. So much so, that I couldn't t even tell you much of what the pastor talked about. All I kept thinking about is that I am alone in a sea of people. I was sitting by myself. I went up for communion by myself, and sat by myself to take the communion. I kept praying, when is this going to end, this profound loneliness. When will I feel connected to people in my church? When will my husband find me. Ya see, in the old days I have my friend alcohol to help me make friends. I could be more fun faster than I can now. Without my friend alcohol, I am slower to warm up to people, which gives them the impression that I don't want to know them. So, then end of church comes, and I am picking up my stuff to go, when my pastors wife, Tamera walks straight up to me to say hello, but instead asks me if I am feeling connected here. I instantly said no and started to cry. I told her that I knew it was mostly because of me and how I relate to people, and it is frustrating and hard. She talked with me for awhile, both of us crying. Then she prayed with me. When we were finished, a girl walked by, Tamera asked her to stop and talk with us. Her name is Joy, and she is close to my age. She introduced us, then had to go. Joy and I talked for awhile. She said she was feeling sad today too because they love it here, but have to leave the Springs this summer because her husband has to do his Fellowship in Ohio. She doesn't want to leave. After talking a while more, I gave her my card with my email and phone # on it. She thought it would help us both if we got some girls together and do dinner sometime. So you see what God can do? I cried all the way home because of how amazing that was. I also told my mom about it. I'm still hoping God gets his hooks into her. Have a great week everyone, and know that if I didn't have all of you in my life.....well you know. Thank you for Blogland!